Kurt Cobain part 6

"Many believed Kurt's stomach pain was just a lie to rationalize his heroin use, but it was real; his mother had identical symptoms in her mid-20s. Ironically, Kurt said his scream emanated from precisely the same spot that he felt the pain in his guts; even playing guitar was sometimes painful because of his scoliosis. But what tormented Kurt wasn't merely physical. All that talent and charisma packed into such a brittle, little package recalled Robert Tripp's description of Jimi Hendrix as a thin wire with too much current running through it.
"I still see stuff, descriptions of rock stars in some magazines", says Cobain  - " 'Sting, the environmental mental guy,' and 'Kurt Cobain, the whiny, complaining, neurotic, bitchy guy who hates everything, hates rock stardom, hates his life.' And I've never been happier in my life. Especially within the last week, because the shows have been going so well - except for tonight. I'm a much happier guy than a lot of people think I am. It's impossible for me to look into the future and say I'm going to be able to play Nirvana songs in ten years. There's no way. I don't want to have to resort to doing the Eric Clapton thing. Not to put him down whatsoever; I have immense respect for him. But I don't want to have to change the songs to fit my age [laughs]."
"It was so fast and explosive," Cobain says in a sleepy, gravelly voice of his first crisis of confidence following the ballistic success of Nevermind. "I didn't know how to deal with it. If there was a Rock Star 101 course, I would have liked to take it. It might have helped me. I hate to actually even say it, but I can't see this band lasting more than a couple more albums, unless we really work hard on experimenting. I mean, let's face it. When the same people are together doing the same job, they're limited. I'm really interested in studying different things, and I know Krist and Dave are as well. But I don't know if we are capable of doing it together. I don't want to put out another record that sounds like the last three records."
- David Fricke
"All I need is a break, and my stress will be over with," says Cobain. "I'm going to get healthy and start over."
- Michael Azerrad